She

Believe me.

I've tried, much more than you think i ever did.

I've tried so many times, I've tried like 9999x times and failed 9999x times.
Its way too hard for someone like me to live this world.

I'm way too damaged,

too young to get damaged this much.

The only thing that keeps me feelin alive has already gone.
I'm all alone and so damaged.
No one is really there for me, even tho i know there is.
But they arent here. They arent here beside me.
I cant even see them, or talk to them.
Its been 4 years, cant i be happy at least?
Let me be free, and stop haunting me.

Everything comes to my mind every single day, every night.
Everything at once.
They wont leave, they stays. Just like the scars.
 And the worst is,
Everytime they haunts me, my mind changes into an empty dark thing. It wont think, It wont change.
I see nothing after that, Everything becomes so dark, and empty, and i could only feel some bitterness inside my whole body. And it goes like that every day. Until now.

No one can save her from her pain.
No one can save her from the suffer.
No one can save her from the darkness.
She gets a little bit safe inside the darkness and slowly find the beauty in it.
But the truth is, she knows she will never get healed after that.
She could only think that everything couldnt get along with her anymore,
she lost her-self and drown in the sadness.

Trying to fit in sometimes,
Trying to be real sometimes,
Trying to be like others,
Trying to let go,
Trying to fight the pain,
Trying to get motivated,
Trying to accept the fact,
and trying to live, once again.

Yeah, she knows she's faking it.
Everyday, every second time,
She tries to fit in and act natural,
but she knows deep inside,
She's faking it. Not even a day she could be herself. She couldn't talk to anyone about the truth.
No one really cares anyway.
Like,
hello little baby princess, who cares? FUck off.

Now she's just talking to her pages.
Her favorite pages.
Blank pages.
Putting some art on it, yeah, words.
The words she only knew.

She's full of mystery.
So hideous inside,
filled with secrets.