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Today,
started from 7.30pm - 26 February 2017.


Have i moved from my past? Yet, it still hurts sometimes.
But have i let them go?
They might be the first peeps i lost, the second i never want to lose, the third i met.
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I found new peeps too. Just like they did.
I found them, i know, no one could replace you guys. But i know someone better will come.
I found them,
its been 2 years since we were this close, so many ups and downs. We fought for real a lot tho. Cried a lot. Hurt a lot. Shared a lot. Laughed together.

Right.
I'm DARK. I'm MESSED. I'm such a TROUBLEMAKER. I'm way too BAD.
But they accept me. They knew how dark i am. And the best part i could never resist, they believed in me. They dont leave. Even tho we never know what will happen soon.

Another best part about them.
I dont have to share my deepest secrets. The pain that caused me became a suicidal. I knew im way too bad. Thats it, thats the best part. The worst thing that happened to me years ago, the thing i really wanted to share to someone, at least one, but i couldn't.
I keep it all because i have to. Not because i dont want to.
Actually i dont feel like writing today. This day.

Dearest my friends now,

Thank you for accepting me. Even tho you all alrd knew how dark, messed, bad i am, n the every flaws i had..