February

U'r only da one of the list i usually see on Calender's.
But this year, the new of 2015.

This time, it became important to me. even just fo a few days of Feb's.
Second date of Feb's, it was Monday.
I went to school just as usual. yeah,just like i used to.
Lookin around,searching fo him.
I waited till the bell's rang. I still didnt see him around,i thought i was late and he was already in school that day. I peeked a lil bit upstairs, still, theres no him..
Well, he was sick that day. if i wasnt mistaken

Tbh,iv never missed him lyk dat before.. Went home with a upset feelings,..
Checked phone and received a text from him! I still remember his text anyway *i kno i'll never forget lol-
Yeah,im excited. We have a lil convs like usual.
Day by day gone, he began to text me day by day. And one day, he made me fly~ without his knowin i guess.
Its almost 14th of Feb, which aka Valentine.
He said, he's gonna prove it. On V's day.

Yeah, fo sure im about to die flying too high.. Few days before the day.. He just walked away.

If anyone ever felt that, its like..
U'r getting urself fly sooo high, and when u'r at ur most comft, he JUST BOMZ U DOWN till people found urself on the ground. And when people tried to help you, you lost yourself and pushed 'em away.
You dont remember a thing, all u ever knw was.. PAIN.

U feel like u'r already in pain which u'll be gone in a time.

When its all said and done, I hope to die with a smile on my face.

But time is running.. Its just passed.
I found him was dating with other girl, sadly, i knew that i was only a trash foe him trying to make himself get rid of his own feelings from other girl.

He changed. He just walked passed me when we met.
No more teasing,no more laugh,no more talking.
We lost contact, he didnt care a bit..

 But u can never really force someone to love you,ryt?
And if u do, u'll get hurt havin to accept the fact that they cant. They just cant.
Well, God has another plan,dear.
He wont let u feel those pain alone, more and more.
He'll get you another way, its just about time.

Everything needs time, time will get you a way, to get rid of those.

You wanted to cry? Cry, cry untill u feel like ur eyes gonna ripped off.
You wanted to scream? Scream, scream untill people looked at you and think u'r crazy.
   Scream, scream untill u feel ur throats gonna ripped off.
Enjoy all those moments u have, while you can.

One day, u'll lose the feelings. U'll forget.. And time, will take you to another place where you belongs to~