Only passing thought while having an insomnia

When you feel like writing
but you are at a loss of words
so you just sit there
with the blank white paper



When you dont feel like sleeping tonight
So you just start a new words
and start to write

Because you know there wont always be a rainbows up there after the rain
Because you know there wont always be a thunder while its raining hard
Because you know there wont always be a darkness in emptiness

Because it'll never be the same as what you expect it to be
And you'll always have to accept it
Because if you dont,
then you'll be lonely

You wanna get the fuck out from shits
but you trapped yourself in the deep dark hole
where noone is gonna be there for you to lend you a hand,
or just passing out and stop to see if something's unusual

Some nights you just feel flying
There are lots of butterflies, beautiful ones
flying all over your head, your mind
And you just cant get over it
You follows them up
You are flying
You are dancing
You are having fun
Thats all you need
 Some nights you want to spend partying alone
 Some crazy nights you want to spend your time with a huge mess of party

because thats all you need, man

You enjoy how it makes you fly
You enjoy how one glass can make you feel better than anything else
You enjoy how time flies faster and easier
You enjoy those what makes you feel better
You enjoy those simple things

You know its not a wrong thing
You feel like u're just havin fun
and trynna walk away for a while from problems in your life
Because it makes you feel a better way
better than letting yourself broken

You listen to a loud song
It's good
it feels good
loud things makes you deaf'

from thoughts

.


Why sorrows dont go?
Why they come and never leave?
Why stay and never leave?
Why cant happiness come and never leave then?
Why sorrows
not happiness

Why sadness
when there's something better

You are a tiny dust living in a big world
Trynna fit in but you cant
so you fucked up
you blame yourself for being exist

thats how criminals begin