Almost and the Over

 "We almost loved once," she said, bitting her lip at the memory.

 "It was our eyes meeting from across a crowded room and us playing jokes but he's the one who fell that moment. Dunno how, i felt the electrifity everytime our bodies brushed against each other."

"Almost love is the worst. Its full of what-ifs and I-wishes. When you know it could've worked under different circumstances, it tears you apart."

"Almost love hurts. Especially when it was you. If i could choose, i wouldn't choose you."




"When do you know its over?" he asked,
"when someone stops trying," she answered."or worse, when trying no longer works."


"you have no idea, you have to idea how hard it is to see the face of someone that you once loved every single day. But you know whats even harder?," she waits a moment, wanting this to hurt him as much as it hurts her.

"seeing a stranger where you once had a home."

 "I really wish i had been more grateful for him when i had the chance," she sighs.
" I took him for granted. I didnt fully appreciate the little things he did. or the big things, actually.. He loved me, and i loved him too, but i didnt really show it. I hurt him by doing that."
"I guess thats why he leftk. i just wasnt thankful for all he did."
"That must be why they say to be thankful for what you have, because it'll leave eventually."

 "I just dont love you anymore," he said.
Those 6 words knock all the breath i have out of my body.

"I'm sorry," he said.

I want to ask him so many questions, say so many things. I want to ask him why, want to beg for him not to go, want to tell him to go fuck himself. I want to say sorry for not being good enough.
I want to say all of these things, but instead of speaking, i point at the door.

He slams it shut on his way out."

 
You know, I once thought u'd always be there for me. How mistaken. The moment i needed u the most, the moment where i wasnt sure if i would love to see another day. The moment like giving up. You gave up on us. You gave up on me.

 That day, the thing was.. I knew he wanted to be with me, but he was too afraid that i would hurt him. So he hurt me instead.