My final escape

Last night, I did it.
First time in my life.
I did it a my 17.
First for me to drink, and first for me to get drunk that bad.

Dark, sometimes i saw a little lights.
Dark, sometimes i saw some  people i know.
The funny thing i could remember was, while in the car with some of my friends and i knew them but i kept on asking who they are.

It felt like, being dead for a while?
Because I dont remember a thing.
I felt happy, I felt like i wanna stay there all night long, along with the music.

Tipsy, blackout, and then I threw up.
I dont remember a thing tho.

The first place i went and we ordered a bottle of soju lychee. seriously, i only saw 3-4 people there.And only bars

the 2nd & last place i went to last night (WU)
We ordered 2 bottles of soju ori where i began getting tipsy and..

Because i didnt find any fun things in the first place, i moved to the second place and i really enjoyed it there.
I felt like, "this is where i supposed to be. This is where i belongs to."
I almost forgot everything that happened in my life. For real, no joke.
And thats what i need right now.

Dont judge me, because you never know me.
No one ever does.

Yea, it was embarrasing.
It really was.
But I dont mind going there, again.

See you, when i feel depressed. so. much. again.

ps. i'm allergic to alcohol