Its gone, dear.
Its gone.
You should heal yourself. Take a look, deeply.
Take care of your little broken heart, its burning weakly now, cant you feel?
You should stop expecting it to come back.
You know,
You lost something you wont be able to take back.
No matter how long you have owned it.
You might miss how it used to be having them around you, how it made you feel happy. But you cant have it back, dear.
Its like, wanting someone who died to come back and live again.

"I miss them so much. I feel like i'm gonna die, i miss them, a lot."
You keep complaining, expecting, and drowning into sadness for a long time.
But hello? Ask yourself, " What about them? Do they miss me? or maybe do they still even remember me? Do i ever crossed by their mind once ever since i left? Do they feel sad or empty without me?"

You may miss someone that much, but please, dont let yourself in the sorrowness fo a long time. Please stop.
She is broken, she used to be a nice happy cheerful little girl who always wore a pure smile and was so innocent. Until that happened. Until she lost what she used to have around her. Until she moved to somewhere far, far from her comfort zone, far from what she's been comfrted with. She felt so alone, she was lost, she is broken.
She couldnt help herself, she keep it all for years. Hoping something good happens. Something unexpected. But she knew, she is done.
She is done with everything in her life. She wanted to stop, yeah, to stop the pain. To make it stop coming back. To stop.


She's depressed so much, that she couldnt tell anybody about whats going on in her life.
So then she started to write.