Its almost 2016!

Today, this day..
Its gonna be the last day of the year.

365/365
 
 Last page of the chapter.

Even so,
all i used to see were big fireworks and barbeques or foods and people countingdown to the new year n manymore.
I see happiness.
Another happiness also relieved because i know another new year is coming, and its the end of the year.

Its almost 2016. Another new year will come with so many unexpected surprises. Another whole things will also change.

And again, i wished i could enjoy the new year's eve countdown with my beloved things. My friends. My closest. my old friends. I want my things back. I want them here. I wish they were here, and still be here with me. Living the world without them is like living in the dark places. You see nothing. You feel nothing but scared. You're alone. And nobody could help you, nobody will come for you. There's never ever a time for you to stop thinkin about them, and blaming urself for being gone.

Somtimes, i miss fireworks.
I miss having fun and party.
But well.

Missing a friend, is as worse as missing your family. perhaps.
They were already like family. I knew i should've never leave. I never knew. God, I have nothing special this time. I'm all left home alone, i got nobody, and nobody ever try to understand me. If only i can get my wishes to come true only tonight. I wish, in 2016, an unexpected good things will come to me. and my family. I wish, good things will always come in 2016.  And also, i hope i'll find someone new, someone who's always be there with me, no matter how crazy im sometimes, no matter how hard its with me, i want someone good, someone whos never gonna let me down, who will not let my tears come down, whos never gonna betray me. Amen.

God, i have nobody to ask.
I have no one. my family will never try even once to listen, to listen me. to understand.

And here all i see is a betrayal, stabber, ego, selfish.
People, fake people. I can see them everyday. everywhere.

Sometimes, i feel so bad that i hate myself for being born and exist.
I cant have a good life like others, i cant be like others, im different. i'm weird. i dont like complicated things. i dont like people.

Almost like a farewell for 2015.
You weren't bad at all. I learned a lot this year. Even tho i forgot what iv done in this 3 years. Thankyou 2015 for good and bad things! 

Well for people out there who is cheering and waiting for the countdown, HAVE FUN! :))))))
I wish you guys can fullfil ur wish and have a better life in 2016. Leave the past, and live the present n future.

Hello January, Hello 1st.
The first of everything in this new chapter.


Happy New Year 2016! :)
Hope this year will be a good unforgettable year for all of us! God will always be here with us, he will never betray us!
Be blessed as always, God Bless you.


With heart,
-JTandF-