Learn to love someone or learn to forget someone?

This is all about my experiments, the stories i wrote, the things iv told, its all came from what happened to me, aka my past.



I moved to a new life, new things around me, new people with a free lifestyle, new atmosphere.
And then i dated with someone for 7months.
I moved again, to the new school where the first thing i thought was.. "it must be a good places, i think i'll be much better here". And the fact is, its not as what i expected it to happen.
I liked a guy, for a year, i think i could counted it about 390-420 days.

Even i did something wrong, dating with someone i thought was the one who can make me forget about him. I dated with him on my 11th months(of me liking that one guy in my school). Over all the boys that been closed with me, or flirted, or those whoever trynna make a convos with me, he's the only i THOUGHT at first i could give a try.
At first, everything seems great. I thought im over him, and i found the right one. Then stop, as the time goes, it tells me that he's not. I started feeling un-comft everytime i'm with him. I started feeling ilfeel? ah idk. Its unexplained. Everything he did slowly made me realized that i didnt like him. for sure.
I should've felt it, but i just didnt realize.
I tried to be good, but then i felt sick enough. He showed me things i dont like, he acted like....watever.

I'm messed. I couldnt stand. I wanted to cry so badly, but i dont even know whats the reason. Should i cry over someone i dont like? I cried, for having feelings that is too much, and too strong. Till these days i felt like i couldnt love anyone anymore. I felt like nobody is as good as him. I felt like he's the only right guy.

Until then, one day, there was a BIG, really BIG SHIT. shit that happens, at the right time.
This guy i'v told on my last few posts, G. God let us met again, i mean.. For the first time, we really almost in love. He showed me why i should give him a try. Then i gave him, my chance.. another chance. And he did it, for god's sake..
And maybe i was just taking a really long time to make sure, until he gave up and left me behind with all the feelings that i already have on him.

Just like in the lyrics on "we'd ever need" song :
"I should've been chasing you. I should've been trynna to prove that you were the only that mattered to me. I should've said all the things that i kept inside of me, and make you believe."

Many sweet things i could tell you that day, but i just didnt. Many things i wanted to show you, but i just cant. Not sure, enough.

And maybe i'm not good at love :)
This year, i'v learned a lot.
I learned to love someone. Twice, to a different person, a different story, which is unexpectedly iv never imagined.
Two big mistakes this year :
first, i dated the guy i cant love.
Second, i loved the guy with a long responses which made him left me.

I cant blame on anyone for this, i love making mistakes :)
Making mistakes doesnt mean like i'm gonna do it all over again. But which make me realize to wake up and change. Learn from mistakes, and be thankful.

Forgetting someone needs a long time, but not a lifetime, right?
Learning to love someone? Its not as easy as what people see, but then, dont make a decision while you dont even sure with your own feelings. Even you should make him/her wait a little longer.
Because as what i see, if he/she truly loves you, he/she would wait for you, no matter how long it takes. But still, dont make people wait too long. Nobody likes waiting, and anything is possible.